-Hebrews 13:5-6.

"Be content with what you have, for God has said, "Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you." So say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I
will not be afraid."


2.14.2011

i love my boyfriend.
<3


happppy valentine's day everyone!

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now, time to blog. between school, softball, friends, family, and church, i've been beyond tired lately. i usually stay up until like 12 every night talking to tyler and everyone else in the world, but lately i can't stay up past 9. falling asleep with out being able to tell your boyfriend goodnight is a horrible feeling. especially when it happens 5 nights in a row. why am i always so tired? i find myself falling asleep in every class. why? i'm going to bed at freaking 9! that's almost 10 hours of sleep, yet i'm constantly falling asleep.

on the other hand, i find myself extremely happy lately. things are good. life is good. i'm happy, and everyone around me is happy. which makes MY world easier. <3



2.5.2011

okay, so i found this "to-do" list thing on Colleen's blog, but i decided i didn't wanna do one everyday....i wanna do a few of them..just today. i hope this doesn't seem weird to anyone. too bad i just don't care.

Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
Post your favorite quote.
How do you feel today?
Write about something you worry about a lot.
Write about your relationship status.
Write about your best/ favorite kiss.
If you had three wishes, what would they be?


here goes nothing.


i truly have many best friends. and something people say to me a lot is 'everyone's your best friend'. but that's not true. i have so many best friends because i go to each one of them for something different. they'll always be there for me...and i'm not even worried about losing them, i know it'll never happen. courtney johnston, felecia dykes, raulo chafin, corey edenfield, and victoria mcelveen, and heather murray.

if i only had 24 hours to live, i'd let everyone who means something to me know how much i love them. i'd fix any problems with anyone i had. and i'd let everyone know i would be in a better place, and to not worry, to just be happy.

"i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

today i feel excited. i can't wait for 7 o'clock to roll around. i get to go to the circus with my mommmmy, glenn, morgan, and ty <3

something i worry about a lot is my friends. i worry about them more than i worry about myself. it kills me to see them hurt. and i hurt for them when they're hurt. i've realized this in the past week....

my relationship status? taken. and happily taken. i wouldn't change a thing. <3

i don't really have a best/favorite kiss. every kiss is my new favorite.

if i had 3 wishes they would be, to take the pain away from all my friends/family/and loved ones, to have as much money as i wanted...whenever i wanted it, and to have 34474328 more wishes.


..well that wasn't too hard. :)

1.31.2011

it seems like i don't have time to do this anymore. i think about doing it everyday, then find myself doing something else. but today, i feel the need to write. i have so many emotions going on right now. i have so much hate built up towards a few people who have hurt one of my best friends. it's hard for me to have so much hate towards them when she's forgiving them...but we're two different people. she's going through a hard time right now, and it's killing me. i'm always gonna be there for her, and to the people who tell her i'm a bad friend; SCREW YOU. YOU KNOW NOTHING. i'd like to dedicate THIS SONG to you. 

i've never been a big fan of you. part of that probably has to do with the fact that i knew a different bobby than felecia did. but you meant a lot to my best friend, who means a lot to me. you're in a better place now.

RIP BOBBY LEE LOWE.

second off, i never knew i could miss someone as much as i do right now. i'm not the mushy gooshy lovey dovey type, and i didn't think not talking to tyler for 5 days would kill me....when in all actuality i could barley go one. the first day i couldn't talk to him it was killing me....is that normal? THANK GOD HE'S ON THE WAY HOME NOW....yay for leaving vacations early. <3 I LOVE YOU TY. <3 ...he'll never read this. hahahah.


it devastates me getting a call from my best friend when she's crying her eyes out. i'm glad she trusts me, and comes to me in tough times. thanks for being there for me no matter what. i'm so glad i can count on you. BABY... <3 you're a true friend.


it kills me knowing you cry all the time. but it's understandable why you do. don't ever think you're not good enough, because you are. and you have so many people who love and care about you. you're beautiful. and you've become one of my best friends. i'm so glad we got over our stupid conflict ;) i love you! 


RAULO, i just wanted to say thank you for all you do for me....you're such a good best friend. i love you waulooooo!
and it kills me inside knowing someone can treat you like pure crap when you haven't done anything. you're a good person, and a sweet person, stupid people will always take advantage of that. <3 WHEN I SEEEE.........i'm poundinn'.


i feel like such a whiner right now....venting to the computer. i'm such a complicated person with so many mixed up emotions lately. oh well. i'll be okay, there are better people in worse situations. <3

1.8.2011

so i haven't written in forever...and it kinda makes me feel bad. but oh well. i guess y'allll don't care about what i write anyways. i promise i'll try writing more....

i'll sum up what's been going on since i haven't been writing lately.

- i quit my job...THANK GOD :)
- i have the best friend's i could ever ask for.
- i love my boyfriend.
- i THINK i passed all my classes.
- i'm so excited about snow coming again. <3
- maaany special things have happened already this year.


AND NO MORE ATEC FOR ME :)





AND NO PICTURE OR SONG....i know i'm a slacker, i apologize.

12.24.2010

so i know thanksgiving was last month and everything, but i was thinking today that christmas is a time you should think about all your thankful for as well. 2010 has been by far the worst year of my life. my family has fallen apart, which is by far the worst thing that could happen. all my life my family has been picture perfect. seriously. no fighting, no hatred, anything like that. 2010 rolls around and everything went down hill. i really don't wanna go in to everything that's happened, because that's my business, and i'm not all for airing my dirty laundry. i just had to get that off of my chest. when 2011 rolls around, i will be one happy girl. 2010 can KMA. seriously. new year, new thoughts, new directions, new people, new life...new me. on a happier note, i'm so ready for santa. sooooo ready. christmas is the one time my entire family is together, and i look forward to it every year. i didn't really want anything particular this year, but when i sat down and thought about it, i just wanted to be with my family. and on an ending note, i haven't had dinner yet, and my moms asleep, so i'm gonna go make some spaghetti. pray that i don't burn the house down....<3 MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE. <3



12.23.2010

today was a good day....i don't have much to say so i'll just do a survey....
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Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight?
maybe, probably not. i'll be texting him though.

Ever had a near death experience?
yesssssssss...

Where’s your cell phone?
laying on me...

What is the last thing you thought about?
punching court in the face.

Do you regret anything?
nothing.

If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell?
courtney.

What are you going to do this weekend?
chrissssstmas <3

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
i'm sitting next to one right now.

Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?
there is nothing i do better than revenge ;)

Would you curse in front of your parents?
no way jossse.

What kind of camera do you have?
IDK!

Would you rather go to a party or out of town?
out of town!

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
i'm sure.

When was the last time you held someone’s hand?
today.

Who can you tell everything to?
courtney and morgan.

Can you play guitar hero?
yuuuus.

Is any part of your body sore?
negativeee.

Are you missing someone right now?
yes.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
nope nope. :)

When was the last time you saw the person you last kissed?
today!

Do you like your phone?
yesssssssssssssssssss.

Last thing alcohol beverage?
beer i think....yuuuck!

Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex?
yes.

Have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you?
yes...

If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
courtney.

What’s the seventh text message in your inbox say?
"oh hahaha sorry" -hunter butler!

When is your next road trip?
good questionnn.

What did you do this weekend?
spent it with ty.

Met anyone new in the past week?
yesss.

What does your bestfriends call you?
rand. and pinecone. <3 :)

Who was the last person to go to the movies with you?
morgan!

Are you currently fighting with someone?
negativeee.

Who/What would you like to see right now?
tyyyyyyyyy.

Are you mad at someone right now?
nope. i'm fine.

What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
i have a few nice ones :)

Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone?
cell.

Is there an empty place in your heart?
nope nope.

Do you count down the days till anything?
yes, yes i do. :)

Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
yes!

Have you ever been called a tease?
BAHAHAHAH.

What are your chances of getting with your crush?
beeeen with him <3

What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend?
long tiiime.

Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family?
yes. yes i do. <3

Anyone told you a secret this week?
yeees. :)

Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
no!

Do you hate anyone?
no. no i dont.

Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing?
hm, friday!

What do you want in your life right now?
i'm goooood!

When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
like 3 seconds ago!

Did you tell someone something today?
yes!

Do you trust people easily?
no...

What were you doing at 9pm Friday night?
wrestling with deion and tyler!

Do you think your good enough for the person you like?
i hope so. :)

What color are your eyes?
bluuuuuuuue.

Who was the last person who hugged you?
tyler.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings, what was it about?
no siblings.

Who was the last person to message you on facebook? 
diaaa <3
  
Do you know anyone who still says 'your mom' or 'your face'?
ME!

Do you believe guys 'only want one thing' ? 
no.

Have you ever felt like giving up on someone? 
yesss..
  
What color is your bra? 
navy blue :)
  
Are you listening to music right now?
nope.

Do you and your friends have the same taste in music?
for the most part! <3
  
Do you ever crack your knuckles/ back/ ankles/ wrists/ etc? 
n. e. v. e. r. 

Do you think before you speak?
neverrrr.
  
Where are you ticklish?
EVERYWHERE.

Have you ever played truth or dare?
yes...who hasn't.
  
How old do you look?
uh, like randi.

Have you ever shared a blanket with someone?
yes.

What is your name?
randi joanne ray.

Do you like your smile?
sure!

Where are you now? 
my bedroom at nanny and papas.

What are you doing today?
today's over.

What are you wearing?
jeans, black shirt, scarf.

Will you be in a relationship in the next 2 months?
.. <3 i hope. :)

Whats the weather like outside?
COLD.
  
Whats your favorite drink? 
cooooke.
   
What were you doing at 2 in the afternoon today?
shopppping!

Do people ever call you by your last name?
nooo.
  
What is more important, happiness or trust?
mm, both are important.

Do you ever think "what if" about anything?
about a lot..
  
Are your toe nails painted pink?
lime green. :)
  
Have you ever searched for your house on Google Earth?
yes!!

Do you think you'll be married in 7 years?
i'll be 22...so iddddk.

Where was your default picture taken?
school.
  
Have a crazy side? 
aha, yes. :)

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