it seems like i don't have time to do this anymore. i think about doing it everyday, then find myself doing something else. but today, i feel the need to write. i have so many emotions going on right now. i have so much hate built up towards a few people who have hurt one of my best friends. it's hard for me to have so much hate towards them when she's forgiving them...but we're two different people. she's going through a hard time right now, and it's killing me. i'm always gonna be there for her, and to the people who tell her i'm a bad friend; SCREW YOU. YOU KNOW NOTHING. i'd like to dedicate THIS SONG to you.
i've never been a big fan of you. part of that probably has to do with the fact that i knew a different bobby than felecia did. but you meant a lot to my best friend, who means a lot to me. you're in a better place now.
RIP BOBBY LEE LOWE.
second off, i never knew i could miss someone as much as i do right now. i'm not the mushy gooshy lovey dovey type, and i didn't think not talking to tyler for 5 days would kill me....when in all actuality i could barley go one. the first day i couldn't talk to him it was killing me....is that normal? THANK GOD HE'S ON THE WAY HOME NOW....yay for leaving vacations early. <3 I LOVE YOU TY. <3 ...he'll never read this. hahahah.
it devastates me getting a call from my best friend when she's crying her eyes out. i'm glad she trusts me, and comes to me in tough times. thanks for being there for me no matter what. i'm so glad i can count on you. BABY... <3 you're a true friend.
it kills me knowing you cry all the time. but it's understandable why you do. don't ever think you're not good enough, because you are. and you have so many people who love and care about you. you're beautiful. and you've become one of my best friends. i'm so glad we got over our stupid conflict ;) i love you!
RAULO, i just wanted to say thank you for all you do for me....you're such a good best friend. i love you waulooooo!
and it kills me inside knowing someone can treat you like pure crap when you haven't done anything. you're a good person, and a sweet person, stupid people will always take advantage of that. <3 WHEN I SEEEE.........i'm poundinn'.
i feel like such a whiner right now....venting to the computer. i'm such a complicated person with so many mixed up emotions lately. oh well. i'll be okay, there are better people in worse situations. <3